Strength

As a mom who works full time outside of the home I find myself coming home after being gone for 12 hours (I leave at 7 am, drop off my son, work, pick up my son, arrive home around 7pm) and I look around and am overwhelmed. 

The laundry is piled up, the dishes in the sink need to go into the dishwasher, but the clean ones need to come out first.  You know what I mean, you get the visual.  I know that I am not alone in this.  Every other mom in the world has the same laundry and dishes.

 I laugh when people say "I don't know how you do it, do it all".  I'm not sure what "all" they think I"m doing.  I'm going to work, making a living so that I can provide for my family.  I am spending the 2 hours at night my son is awake before bedtime playing with him and enjoying his presence.  I am running the dishwasher and washer & dryer in cycles in the evenings and swap them in the morning.  I am doing whatever it takes, what every other mom does.

Needless to say when I was little and I dreamed of a family, this is not what I had in mind.  I had the white pickett fence, stay at home mom, clean manicured home, dinner on the table at 5 pm, perfect little world idea (think Bree Van de Camp minus the crazy).  It wasn't that I was raised in Stepford Wives world, I simply thought in my head that was what it would be like. 

Don't get me wrong, it takes alot.  I juggle my time and prioritize.  I decide what's worth my time and what isn't.  I get overwhelmed by it all.  At the end of the day, if you showed me 10 years ago that this would be my life I wouldn't have believed you.  I would have thought "I can't do that".  I have found a strength within that I am daily amazed by. 

God knows my capacity, and He will not give me more then I can handle.  He knows what I can handle, better then I could ever dream or imagine.  He knows how strong I am.  My strength has been tested alot in the last 4 years, but I stand firm in the fact that God is and always will be my ROCK, my FORTRESS, my EVER PRESENT HELP. 

With this I encourage you, you are not alone.  You are stronger then you know.  You are an AWESOME creation of God and He doesn't make mistakes.